It might sound silly, but I’m actually really excited to be celebrating my first Mothers’ Day. I know you’re not actually here yet, and I’m not sharing it with you in a way where you have any idea what’s going on. But it just reminds me that this huge change is coming in my life. I day dream about seeing you and holding you and comforting you when you get here. I flash forward to being a mom who’s trying to teach you things and grow with you. I fantasize about us having mommy-daughter parties and dancing silly in the living room or the basement when daddy’s not home. I even think about getting you through your first crush, first love, and first heartbreak.
These thoughts and dreams really get me through the tough days. The nights when you kick me so hard I can’t sleep. Yes, baby girl, I know you’re there :-). They get me through the days I’m so exhausted and uncomfortable that all I want to do is cry. They’re getting me through fighting 2 infections simultaneously while trying to keep my blood sugar down and gain weight at the same time! The third trimester has not been easy! But I look ahead. I found something valuable to share with you in light of Mothers’ Day coming up.
Mother’s Day is coming up, and I thought I should tell you what I want. This way there’s no guilty panic or last minute purchasing of flowers at the closest gas station. So, this is what I want, this year and every year after; it’s pretty simple really.
I want you to be a decent human being.
I want you to be who you are, but don’t be an asshole.
I want you to work hard at everything you do, because life is too short not to give it everything you’ve got.
I want you to ask for help when you need it.
I want you to help others when they need it.
I want you to learn how to cook, do your own laundry, pay your bills and know how to clean a bathroom.
When you screw up, and you will, more than once, I want you to own it, because it’s the screw-ups that make the victories sweeter.
I want you to travel, because the world is huge and you are one part of it.
I want you to know that even when we hate each other, I will never stop loving you.
I want you to play nicely with others.
I want you to feed your curiosity.
I want you to find a way to do what you love, and realize that that might look different than you originally thought.
I want you to respect every human being’s right to be who they are.
I want you to sometimes be more interested in someone else than in yourself.
I want you to know that you are flawed and you are extraordinary. There is no one else like you.
I want you to know that I would lay down my life for you in Lily Potter fashion any day of the week.
I want you to realize how lucky you are every once in awhile even if only for an instant.
I want you to know love, even if it means getting hurt.
I want you to relax and not feel guilty about it.
I want you to know life can be brutally hard sometimes.
I want you to know that you can choose happiness even when the dark side offers you cookies.
And I wouldn’t mind breakfast in bed.
I hope you find this helpful one day 🙂